To find a new place. To pen down all my thoughts.

I am almost 1 year to the day he stepped out of my life.
Thing are clearing up. More n more.

I kinda couldnt get over the fact how much it affected my darling.

Was trying to find out about his thoughts towards meeting his dad without me.
He broke down in tears and keep saying he dont want to.

I couldnt help it but calmed him and helplessly cried with him.

My heart broke.

How much did he know, as a 4 years old little boy to have such emotion. When its just a simple thing which is to meet his dad.

He couldnt express himself that well. But as a mum. I could totally feel his fear and confusion when his life became chaotic due to all the sudden change.

I love you. I will do everything just for you. I promised.